Learn about the underlying (root) causes of childhood adversity, sexual abuse, and domestic violence to identify behavior patterns and prevent violence.
Many are askinghow to stop violencein schools and communities.
I believe society will not find answers by focusing on violence. Nor resolutions by imposing laws that provide temporary relief and appear to fix the situation.
They’re a band-aid solution for a more significant problem.
The problem is within the heart of humanity; it is something people don’t talk about or acknowledge. Society will not find a remedy for it through human-made solutions.
To find the answer, you must understand how humanity got into this condition and what needs to happen to stop the epidemic of violence.
Healing the heart of Domestic Violence is recognizing who you’ve become growing up or are going into the situation.
Acknowledging the past and recent experiences in life are reflected outward through actions and reactions.
The personal choices you made in life.
It’s two people crushed in spirit.
I’m a 20+ year survivor of Domestic Violence. It took years to heal in mind and spirit. I praise God, and he never left nor forsaken me. God’s love and strength have seen me through the toughest of times.
Reflect – Hindsight is 20-20
To recover, reflecting on past events that occurred before, during, and after three and one-half years of Domestic Abuse was necessary.
You can’t heal what you don’t acknowledge!
When you reflect on circumstances afterward, you can see them more clearly. Hopefully, you will learn from the situation, grow and heal.
Reflecting: Childhood
Homelife was not great growing up in a dysfunctional family; we had little to no guidance in life, suffered from neglect, some suffered abuse, often left to our own devices, and our parents were hardly ever home.
Parents are responsible for shaping their child’s futures. My parents shaped me into a strong-minded person who became accustomed to seeing, dealing with, and overcoming abuse. I was the protector and caretaker of my younger siblings, and I always fought for what was right.
Reflecting: Pre-Marriage
Without parental guidance and supervision, we came, went, and did as we pleased.
I was 17 when we started dating, and he slapped me upside the head a short time after first being together.
Knowing he would be abusive, I didn’t want to continue seeing him. He continued visiting our house, bringing flowers and wanted to date my younger sister.
He was abusive and used manipulation long before we were ever married. The red flags were there. I chose to ignore them and should have run away back then.
Reflecting: Marriage
After becoming pregnant and three months after turning 18, we were married. My husband smashed the wedding plate and wine glasses, broke the rings, and declared the marriage over shortly afterward.
Then, the abuse started. I was confused, scared, and all alone. I would spend the next 3 1/2 years in an abusive situation, one that felt almost impossible to escape.
The acts of Domestic Violence are “not” the cause of Domestic Violence. With that said, I will touch on some of the abuse that occurred during this time.
He pulled a knife on me several times, split my head open, required over 20 stitches, threatened to kill me, threatened family members, imposed fear upon me, and didn’t allow me to bond with or care for our children properly.
He hit, slapped, belittled, and isolated me from others. My husband abused drugs, didn’t want to work, and spent six months in jail for domestic violence.
Asking the Why Questions
The questions surrounding the words “Domestic Violence” or “Domestic Abuse” are often the same.
Why –
Did this happen?
Do you stay?
Don’t you leave?
I was predisposed to abuse growing up in this environment and preconditioned for a life of turmoil and violence. The lack of supervision and parental guidance is incomprehensible now.
Good parents would have stopped this relationship. They would never have allowed a child who wasn’t even out of School to quit and get married. They would have sent him packing. ASAP!
Why do you stay?
Why don’t you leave?
I had no hope and was deeply afflicted. I didn’t have anyone to help or support me. I was alone, with no job skills, car, or parents.
After seeking help from the courts, the local county offices, and even my mother, I left in absolute fear for my life and lost everything in the process.
Reflecting: After Marriage
Over twenty years later, our paths would cross again via the internet. My husband sent me messages asking, ” Is that you, Linda?” twice.
I was shocked and scared at the same time. You can run, but you can’t hide forever. I decided to face my fears and answer the message.
I responded by saying,
Why must you ask when you know it’s your Wife? I have forgiven you in my heart. That is all I have to say.
He wrote back powerful words;
Just wanted to say I am VERY sorry for all I had done. I’m not that person anymore, not by far, only some punk ass kid would do the shit I did, I was devastated by Anthony’s illness, made me very angry, had a lot of issues prior, but my life has changed, I’m not trying to be a friend, get back, none of that just wanted to say sorry, hope life sheds a ton of happiness upon u and ur’s.
What makes those words so powerful? They speak the truth (I’m not that person anymore, not by far) from his heart.
Healing The Heart After Domestic Violence
We were two people who came together with a crushed spirit. Our past and current experiences in life are reflected outward through our actions and reactions. The choices we made had a profound effect on our and our children’s lives.
Healing and Forgiveness:
And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:7 KJV
Those are the words I wrote back to him, and they are even more powerful. Christ gave me His spirit and inner peace. He placed his love in my heart, renewed my mind, and made forgiveness possible.